I Did Absolutely Everything I Could...

Your girl went through hell & back for someone who likely would have never done the same for her, and you know, I wouldn't go back and do it any differently.

I put my whole heart and soul into a relationship, and honestly, I don't think a lot of people can stay they've done the same. I went from being in the relationship of my dreams to being in the breakup of my worst nightmare; one that I didn't understand nor expect. I watched as someone I genuinely called my best friend and trusted with my life pushed me away. I pondered day in and day out, "Why?"; "What did I do?"; "What happened?". Questions that all went unanswered. I tried wording my questions a hundred different ways, in hopes that one of them would prove worthy of an answer; none did. I corrected my own behavior; I righted my own wrongs; I searched my heart and cleared it of impurities and wrong intentions; I flooded my mind with positive things, disallowing anything negative to be my thinking.

I prayed for him just as much as I prayed for me. I prayed for his healing, his heart, his intentions, and his future. I no longer got to experience his possible future with him, but I still prayed it be done in God's will. I no longer got to hear about the struggles he experienced, but I prayed they were light and manageable. I no longer got to celebrate his victories with him, but I prayed they were joyful. I thought maybe I could maintain a friendship, and at the very least a civility... I failed at both, but Lord knows how hard I tried, how hard I cared and loved.

I have never been the woman to give up on someone else despite all the odds. When I love, I love hard and I love true. There was something about that love that convinced me it would come back eventually (how naive of me; this is not a Hallmark Christmas movie, my love). They always say true love will find it's way back, but I think true love never leaves in the first place.

I anxiously broke down a lot of walls and still got screwed over, but I refuse to re-build those same walls. I anxiously fell in love with someone who probably never fell in love with me, but I refuse to shun love; true love. I did absolutely everything I could to save the love I thought was worth saving; to persevere through the valley. I did absolutely everything I could and that's why I am walking away with contentment... because there is nothing left for me to do now.

One day someone will fight for me the way I fight for them, and one day someone will persevere beside me... Until then, I'll continue to be the woman I am... the woman y'all should have fought for.

xoxo Kaylee

Now... go read this...

http://thepowerofsilence.co/every-guy-ends-up-regretting-pushing-away-the-girl-who-tried-so-hard-for-him/